Wednesday, June 06, 2007

M Pacman!!!

You know the good old arcade game called "Pacman",. where you guide pacman around the maze and eat all the little white dots whilst avoiding the nasty ghosts.

For some reason I feel like I'm Pacman..who is stuck in a maze called life.. and the 4 nasty ghosts that I keep avoiding are Marriage, Truth, 'people who tell me what I am doing is wrong', and sometimes myself. And the white dots represent the small little temporary things that makes me happy and keeps me going. I don’t know why I avoid these things which are bound to happen sometime or the other. Like for example my Marriage... I was never against getting married. Infact marriage was like my all time dream and like every normal girl I too wanted to have a happily married wonderful life. And now that my mom has my bio-data posted on almost all matrimony website and when proposals keep pouring in everyday, I am all worried and thinking if this is what I wanted, to have a colorful 2-day celebration called 'wedding' and spend the rest of my life with someone I dont love??

Now when i read my previous post.. I find so silly and dumb.. I cant believe I wrote this.

Duh!!! Love is Love??..haha how lame!! I have become so cynical off late.

My cousin has just got engaged, and you can find her always chit chatting with her fiancée like she has known him since ages. It just surprises me to see her getting all excited when she gets a mail from him or when she is talking to him over the phone. I am all happy for her.. but I don’t know if I would be as excited as she is when ill get a call from someone whom I've just met, even if he is my fiancée.

The temporary things that keeps me happy are the things which are gonna fade away very soon. Its the truth but I keep running away from it, or maybe I am not thinking about how hard it is going to be when I have to let go of it when the times come.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Love is love. That's all there is to it.

Isn’t it weird that everybody wants to be loved and cared but not everyone is ready to give or ask for it. When we are thirsty we ask for water, when we are hungry we ask for food.. Is love not equally important in life? Then why is it that we never say.. “I want to be loved” or “ I need some love”. Why do feel weird or awkward to ask for love?

What makes people think of it as a big deal or a make it sound very complicated?? Why don’t we consider it as a simple basic need?

I have come across people who have said “I don’t believe in love” ... and I really don’t understand what they mean. Here is one of my favorite quotes on love.. “If you have love, then you don’t need to have anything else and if u don’t have it then.. it does not matter much what else you have.”

Its hard to find true love so if you have chance to be happy, I would say grab it, cause who knows if it will ever come again.

Monday, March 19, 2007

BAd Day!

I realized that one has to always kiss his/her bosses ass to be happy and successful in ur organization. And don’t ever make the mistake of reporting to your superiors about the mistakes of your immediate boss. Ya I understand. They say that “ you can walk into my cabin anytime u wish”.. but that’s not meant to be taken seriously, coz you know they are all hypocrites.

Then what should you do?? Just suck it up and move on.

Oh ya.. there is another thing I realized..

When things are going bad.. you will come across a lot of morons to make it worse.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Personality test!!

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

I need a break!

“It's the perfect time of day
To throw all your cares away
Put the sprinkler on the lawn
And run through with my gym shorts on
Take a drink right from the hose
And change into some drier clothes
Climb the stairs up to my room
Sleep away the afternoon”…

…. is from a song called Pinch Me...and I have been listening to this song from morning and my strong desire to take a weeks off from work keeps intensifying every minute.

I can’t remember when was the last time I took a fresh deep breath or smelled the sea. I can’t remember when was the last time I slept under the open sky while staring at the starts or took time out to look at the clouds and imagine them to look like santa or a smiling child’s face. Wonder when was the last time I opened the old box in the cupboard and looked at the old chocolate paper covers and get nostalgic about those fond memories. I just want to get away somewhere alone, to someplace quite. I really need a break from keyboards and telephones. I want to take a break from the routine and just enjoy the simple things in life if not for any exotic place for holiday. I hope my manager reads this and feels pity on me and grants me a weeks off..

Monday, February 19, 2007

Tears fall in silence..

Cold in this marooned desert i'm sinking in the earth that’s spread like a couch;
I stretch my hands to reach out to you, with eyes of pain and beseech..
But I see you clench your fists while all i need is the love in your eyes.

I am sinking and I can see you looking at me with cold eyes..
You turn to walk away ,I lay helpless and moan...
Dont leave me, for you know how deep is my love..
Dont leave me, dont let me die alone.

Storm clouds are gathering.. the winds are gonna blow;
And emptiness is filling me to the point of agony where death greets me so slow..
I'm sinking .. and I'm sinking.. and inspite of everything Ill still love you my love.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

No time for title.. Good night!!

I am so so bored.. I have absolutely nothing to say .. why cant life get a lil interesting?? WHy whyyyyyyy??

Ok I was exaggerating a lil there.. it hasn been all that bad actually.. hehe.. well my V-DAy was kinda nice.. It was the first time I went out on a date on Valentines day. OMG!!
Ok dont raise ur brow now... It aint anything big.. M just doing what I feel like doing at the moment... not dreaming or thinking abt the future.. just taking things as they come. And its just wonderful. Sometimes people forget to enjoy their present thinking about their future or past.. and I dont want to make that mistake. Lifes a looooot more simpler this way!!