Tears fall in silence..

Cold in this marooned desert i'm sinking in the earth that’s spread like a couch;
I stretch my hands to reach out to you, with eyes of pain and beseech..
But I see you clench your fists while all i need is the love in your eyes.

I am sinking and I can see you looking at me with cold eyes..
You turn to walk away ,I lay helpless and moan...
Dont leave me, for you know how deep is my love..
Dont leave me, dont let me die alone.

Storm clouds are gathering.. the winds are gonna blow;
And emptiness is filling me to the point of agony where death greets me so slow..
I'm sinking .. and I'm sinking.. and inspite of everything Ill still love you my love.

No time for title.. Good night!!

I am so so bored.. I have absolutely nothing to say .. why cant life get a lil interesting?? WHy whyyyyyyy??

Ok I was exaggerating a lil there.. it hasn been all that bad actually.. hehe.. well my V-DAy was kinda nice.. It was the first time I went out on a date on Valentines day. OMG!!
Ok dont raise ur brow now... It aint anything big.. M just doing what I feel like doing at the moment... not dreaming or thinking abt the future.. just taking things as they come. And its just wonderful. Sometimes people forget to enjoy their present thinking about their future or past.. and I dont want to make that mistake. Lifes a looooot more simpler this way!!

Hmmm ..errr.. welll.. what else?

I was silent for 8 hrs today... Its really sad I know.. but that’s what has happened on this awful Awful Monday. Missed my one and only project partner (for a change) as he was busy with some training all day.

There wasn any work to do and I was so bored. I resorted to sending SMSs for a while, and then got bored with that too. Then I thought Ill call and speak to ‘S’ and so started to dial his number and suddenly changed my mind and cut the call before it stared to ring. Exactly a year back, I used to talk to him for more than twice a day and each call would last for a minimum of 15 mins.. And now although I really like talking to him.. I feel so guarded and have nothing to tell him and I wonder why.

I keep quite when I should be talking and talk when I should be keeping quite. And every time after speaking to him, I end up asking myself *with a blurred look* “What was I saying?” … “Why dint I have anything to say?”… I feel so conscious while talking to him over the phone.. and in person its even worse. I guess I don’t want him to read my mind and so I land up saying something very stupid or just keep quite. This has never happened to me before and I really wonder what the hell is wrong with me.

Hmm yeah.. I kinda like this guy.. but I really don’t know what happens to me .. I have nothing interesting to tell him, nothing at all. So I decided I shall not call him. It might be the stupidest thing to do.. but I don’t like him to think of me as a uninterested dumb gal. Dear sweet God.. please help me.. please help me to be myself and not dumb and speachless... I am meeting him this weekend.. and I really want him to like me.