Amazing!

I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy To see me through all my sins
There were times in my life..
When I was goin' insaneTryin' to walk through the pain
And when I lost my grip
And I hit the floorYeah,
I tought I could leave
But couldn't get out the door I was so sick n' tiredOf livin' a lie
I was wishing that I would die
It's amazing With the blink of an eye
You finally see the light
It's amazing...That when the moment arrives
You know you'll be alright
It's amazing...And I'm saying a prayer
To the desperate hearts tonight

That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And a how high can you fly with broken wings
Life's a journey - not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't listen To all that righteous talk
I was out on the streetJust tryin' to survive
Scratchin' to stay alive
(Chorus)
(To all of you people out there)(Wherever you are - remember:)(The light at the end of the tunnel)(May be you - goodnight)

This song is one of my fav.. and I just love the way Aerosmith has sung it..
Says so much about life- struggle, pain, hurt and still there is a hope.. and thats amazing! :)

"Oh no.. Don’t make me lie to you..." is what comes to my mind first when someone asks me ..
- "What are your plans for the future?"
- "What do u want to be?
- "What are your technical strengths?"
- "Where do you see yourself 10 years from now?"

I would answer to such questions depending on who is asking.. If its someone in my Family I would tell them that I want to study further..(You see they like it if kids aim big..) If my friends/colleagues are asking I'd tell them I want a better job (when I say better job I only mean the pay and canteen which serves good food) .. You know ..I can really sound like I am totally inspired and ambitious in life. hehe I short, I am a good liar.

These questions make me think.. and I hate it when people make me think. I still remember the day when I was appearing for my first job interview.. All I knew was I needed that job badly and I just had to tell the HR guy what he expected me to tell him.. It was so simple..All I had to do was "not to be myself". And.. well.. What do u know.. I got the job. HeeeHahaha..

As a kid I never had one single ambition in life.. Infact I had different ambitions eachday.. One day my ambition would be to be an Airhostess.. the next day a Nurse .. next Waitress .. and sometimes even Nun (ya I know that sounds ridiculous) . Only later did I realize that people expect you to be either a Doctor, Engineer or Advocate.

When I ask myself what I want to be.. i get clueless.. I don’t know what I am good at. Then I start to juxtapose things, which I have been thinking about all the week. (Well trust me .. even now my ambitions change on daily basis) ..Whats it today?? Hehe Ambition for the day is ‘to be a Rockstar’…. Blame the stupid TV shows like Rockstar Supernova.

Okie And the things that I am good at are the ones which cant be chosen for a profession. I am good at watching TV(I can do that all day), making up bedtime stories for kids, fake laughs (U know when your friend tell u a stupid joke which doesn’t amuse u at all.. and u fake it... coz u don’t want to make him/her look stupid), rotate both my hands simultaneously.. one clockwise and the other anticlockwise (Heyy..U've got to respect me for this one...coz I am sure u wont be able to do that.. ) .Ok before u judge me.. I am not talent less ok... I can sing, dance and play basketball also.. but its not that I am the best at these.

Sometimes I wonder if I am really that useless..
I haven planned my future.. I have no great ambitions or such.. I know someday ill make it big.. Donno in what though.. hehe.. But I know this for sure.. I can bet u on this!!!! U wanna know how I can be so confident?? Duhh.. I can always get married to someone rich and famous if I cant make it on my own.. heheeeehehe.